Notice something different here? I’ve traded spaces with the “egg” themed Sunny Side Up site, working behind the scenes to give it an extreme makeover. It’s not quite done yet, but close enough to move the bus and let you take a look at some new things God is building! No more menu, no more breakfast, just God’s glory on display.
Here are my thoughts on what’s been happening behind the scenes…
“Capable” Just Doesn’t Cut It Anymore
I’m not a super-girly, perfectly-accessorized-lipstick-matching kind of girl.
I used to be able to change a tire. In the dark. On the side of a muddy dirt road in the middle of a race.
“You have ‘capable’ hands,” my husband has told me. Not quite “man hands” (ala the Seinfeld episode), but they have rarely been outfitted in long fingernails or pretty pink polish.
Raised with two brothers by a working Mom and a Dad who taught me baseball and home improvement, I grew up…well, capable. If something was broken I would try to fix it, although not always very successfully. As I matured into my teens and twenties I sometimes wondered if I really knew how to act like a girl. I didn’t giggle. I would rather be in a race car than at a resort. I didn’t read romance novels. I liked flowers, but not the girly idea that a guy should buy them for me. Give me a ride in an airplane and you had my heart. (Right honey?)
A few years ago at a women’s conference we were asked to choose one word to describe the friend we came with. My friend’s word for me? Capable.
Yup, that’s me…Capable. Except being capable just doesn’t cut it anymore. I’ve learned the hard way that being capable in my own strength is the exact opposite of what I really need to be…
Powerless. Powerless before God, living in and depending on His strength instead of my own. Being “capable” has made it difficult for me to acknowledge my own powerlessness. And consequently, my ability to be completely surrendered to the work of God in my life.
Like becoming more of a girly-girl. One that wears nail polish, cares about what purse she carries, and throws on a necklace to go to the grocery store. Not to conform mind you, but to yield to becoming the woman God really created me to be. Still loving race cars, baseball, and airplane rides, but willing to grow as a woman to display the fullness of God’s glory in my life.
To show that HE is capable. HE takes my flub-ups and fears and turns them into something beautiful. HE calls me beautiful. HE desires for me to be all that I was created to be. HE is the one who knows my potential, even in the dark times.
Like a daffodil bulb, blooming when the perfect day of Spring arrives…
So God’s had me redecorating myself and has planted me here now, amid the flowers. I pray that as I share my journey breaking free into His light, that I am a planting for the display of his glory!
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
To preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
To proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord,
And the day of vengeance of our God;
To comfort all who mourn,
To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified. –Isaiah 61:1-3 NKJV
P.S. Did you click on the racing link and watch the video? I have to say…wow I had fun! Totally crazy, kids-don’t-try-this-at-home fun!